Blog – Jenn M. Choi

Grief is…

April 29, 2025 jennmchoi

Grief is…

Losing both parents too early to lung disease and cancer. Feeling the heartbreak of that forever, even if there was a chance to say goodbye.

Losing a dear friend suddenly, with no chance to say goodbye. Feeling the ache for one more walk together, one more tea, one more dance.

The precious little embryo, that was maybe gonna be a baby, but didn’t make it past Day 5.

It’s feeling the collective sorrow of war, g3n0cide, and destruction that makes us question how humans could possible hurt each other that way.

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I’m Coming Out About My Rage

October 22, 2024 jennmchoi

I didn’t think it would happen so publicly. Certainly not in front of hundreds of people.

In my fantasy, the first time I’d come out about my complex PTSD rage episodes in vivid excruciating detail, I’d be hiding behind a computer screen, or in the comfort of my own home, where I could crawl under the covers after leaking the shameful truth out.

But reality brought an even more sudden and dramatic coming out.

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Rebirth

February 13, 2023 jennmchoi

Did you know that you can be born twice in this life?

Once out of the sacred womb of your mother, as you burst kicking and screaming into the world as a tiny human, your soul incarnate in this lifetime. This is the birth we celebrate every year, huddled around you in a circle, smiling with love. Even after you blow out the candles, the room glows bright with your light.

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I Took a Mental Health Break And Faced My Darkest Shadows

November 18, 2022 jennmchoi

Earlier this summer, a bout of existential void hit me. Sweat from the heat mixed with sweat from my anxiety. I knew something was missing, but I couldn’t figure out what. Paired with it was deep existential exhaustion—the kind that makes your hair feel tired. The kind you feel in your bones, even in the cells of your marrow. The weariness. The fragility of bones and spirit about to break.

“You don’t seem happy.

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I’m Breaking The Cycle of My Family’s Generational Trauma: Not Safe For Mom Group Podcast Interview

June 17, 2022 jennmchoi

At three or four years old, I sat alone on the carpet in our Chinese immigrant home in San Francisco, never knowing when anyone would ever come home. Locked inside, lonely, feeling abandoned.

My parents were doing the best they could to provide for our family in a foreign land, but we were poor and I was often neglected—not by choice but by necessity.

It hurt. A lot. Or at least, it should have.

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Five Lessons From Surviving My First Year As a Mom

April 20, 2022 jennmchoi

As I held him in my arms while my insides were sewn back into place on the operating table, my son opened his little beady eyes one at a time.

At last, we met face to face on a rare snowy day last April. Nine months of gestation (well, a little over nine… stubborn dude was a bit too cozy in there), seventeen hours of excruciating induced labor, two epidural attempts, and one emergency c-section later, Atlas made it out.

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How to Powerfully Hold Space For Each Other

March 11, 2021 jennmchoi

"Unfortunately, this will be our last performance for Carmen," the conductor announced to our packed audience of over 1,000 people on March 10, 2020.

We didn't know how to react. Applause for the amazing opera performance we just saw? Or keep our mouths open in shock, as he shared that all large state-owned venues closed the next day due to the pandemic? Some guests coughed around me. I coughed too. Oh shit.

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Getting Started in Cryptocurrency For Beginners: Welcome Guide

January 27, 2021 jennmchoi

Welcome To The World of Crypto

Hello and welcome, curious human who wants to learn more about getting started with cryptocurrency!

If you're a very early beginner just poking around and wanting to know more about this "thing you heard of from a friend or seen in the news", then congrats! You're in the right place.

My goals for this guide and how you’ll benefit:

Warmly welcome you to the world of cryptocurrency and blockchain
Empower you to sort through the overwhelm by explaining a few basics in simpler terms
Point you to some useful resources for education and investing in cryptocurrency for beginners
Ask you questions to help you think about your own unique journey

I know that it can be overwhelming.

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How To Find A Coach Or Therapist That’s Right For You

December 7, 2020 jennmchoi

Looking for a therapist or coach but don't know where to start?

I was there too. Back in 2016 I was struggling with anxiety, Imposter Syndrome, and building a new business after leaving my corporate job.

I wanted to find some professional help. But I was overwhelmed. How to begin?

Luckily, I found a therapist and a coach that year. They both transformed my life.

Since then, I've worked with several therapists and coaches.

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Tips For Dealing With Grief – My Interview on “The Way We Connect” Podcast

December 2, 2020 jennmchoi

The ones we love live on in us. Knowing this has helped me immensely through my grief.

Are you on a grief journey too? There are often so many unanswered questions and it can be a confusing painful time.

Yet there are things I do know.

I know that in my darkest moments, my parents are comforting me, even though they have passed on.

I also know that in my happiest moments, their spirits come alive to celebrate with me.

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